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So yeah--

I'm a shitty person sometimes... but I don't believe I deserve the way i'm treated. I have just succumbed to the darker side of one of my larger moral battles that i've fought myself over for awhile. I don't know how I really feel in the end, but I think my decision to cut you off was a good one. I can't help someone who wont even help themself- I still do have some sort of weird feelings for you that I can't explain- but you always find a way to piss me off everytime we talk. While with you I have never been so mad... ever in my life... you know... I almost broke my hand on several occasions where we were fighting about NOTHING... you just have the ability to make me feel more anger than anyone i've ever met.How on earth can I be happy... I have no idea what it is about you that even keeps any sort of likable feelings I have for you...
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It's so pathetic
I hate you so much but I still miss you
Karma is hard to change
When everything you do and say is awful
Remorse is hard to fake
When you only feel sorry for yourself
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I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired, and i've helped you and helped... and even tried to be your friend even after realizing that we aren't good together- You just don't even care... you and everyone wanted a reason to call me a jerk... well here it is- hope you're happy. It's clichéd, but Karma is a bitch, and I believe you should get what you deserve... and you don't deserve anything from me-- you take money from me without any intent to pay me back.... you take money to buy shit for me? and not even tell me what it is... and I have yet to see anything from that...

I am done-

I can't express my feelings in any other way... I know someone else will help you-

You have your parents, your new boyfriend, and all of the people you live with... you'll make it without me--

Empty promises from you add up to be so many- i'm sure you'll be able to find it in your heart to take ONE empty promise from me....

I am happier now... I haven't been angry at all since I left-- I hope everyone in your life makes you happy... Remember to always keep people that are good to you and make you happy around you at all times... Lifes too short to waste your life on a dead end-