L'Arc~En~Ciel - Blurry Eyes (ENGLISH TRANSLATION)
Carried on a wind
from far away,
no matter how many times I try to say these words, [1]
they never reach you.
Once again, my eyes stare somewhere
out the window.
This foreboding hasn't changed, I still feel it.
Those days are getting blurry...
Seeing through
blank eyes
like a caged bird,
the light of the afternoon sun is just like
the light that shines on you
from outside.
This foreboding hasn't changed, I still feel it.
Those days are becoming blurry...
I feel the changing season
will see my promise broken. [2]
Even if I reach out with my hands,
my heart will stay distant.
(Why do you stare at the sky with your blurry eyes?)
I feel the changing season
will see my promise broken.
Even if I reach out with my hands,
my heart will stay distant.
In the changing season,
the one precious to me
looked back toward me with those eyes,
sighing softly.
(Your blurry eyes) ...your blurry eyes
(Your blurry eyes) ...My heart
(Your blurry eyes) ...will stay
(Your blurry eyes) ...distant.
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"A long december and theres reason to believe Maybe this year will be better than the last"
--I breathe in the below freezing air and wheeze and cough constantly.--
December is a month that I have grew to hate. Last December was THE worst month I've ever lived through. Did I make it? Sure... things are better now and I believe that this month could possibly be the greatest. December is always the Darkest of months.
"It's in the Blood, it's in the blood. I met my love before I was born"
--you're in my thoughts, hopes, dreams, and fears... You are everything that I hold dear--
I love my Mother more than anyone. Period. Everyday I would wake up and try to balance my family, friends, and you... as well as work, School, and you... Something had to give, and My empty promises blacken my soul like smoking blackens lungs. Everything reminds me of cancer and the sadness, anger, and the DEATH that follows... and all you could say is ... -sorry. You think you were there for me... but you actually Hurt more than anything or anyone ever has...
all I wanted was for you to hold me...
"I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black"
--Whenever I am scared or afraid where do I go?--
I never had anyone or anywhere to go... I always had to be the one to be strong, the one to forgive and forget... I don't typically hold grudges, but I do hold certain things dear to me. I'm not a -good- person. I will have vengeance when something or someone I am passionate is KNOWINGLY and PURPOSEFULLY taken from me. Violence is not an something i've ever turned to...but someday i'm afraid I might... Every night I would dream of taking off my mask the next morning when I woke up... but I just knew it'd be more trouble than it was worth. I can't STAND ....because you can't stand on your own and I have to carry your dead weight... I can't even express in words the way I feel about you.... as the sentence would have opposing words that would make absolute nonsense.... They cancel out... I feel numb... nothingness... I feel nothing when I think about it.
"I will forgive but I won't forget And I hope you know you've lost my respect"
--Do you -LOVE- the ones you love?--
I can honestly say I do. I -REGRET- nothing... So they say. Love is Blind. You were the girl I looked at from afar and longed for... you were beautiful, intelligent, and artistic ... some of the things I still admire about you... Anyone who thinks "I never loved you" is completely retarded. I GAVE you EVERYTHING. all that I am I gave... Although it doesn't mean much to some people... it does to me. By being with you, I learned so much... the most important thing I learned is... I love myself. I feel so cold. I feel so selfish... but I do. And I never want to sacrifice myself completely for someone elses happiness. My favorite Gazette song "Regret" reminds me of the way you've been acting... and I can't stand it. My song is ruined... The fact that you threaten to KILL yourself to my FRIENDS... my FAMILY... and ME... hurts... I've never cursed at you ... but you are a fucking loser for doing that... but I forgive you.
"today is the greatest day i've ever known"
-- Love is a partnership not a dictatorship--
I can't help but wonder why I couldn't ever be happy... The happiness that I feel at this very moment in time makes me want to vomit because of your misery... I want you to be happy ... and I don't think it should be a sin to want to be happy as well. I think that you also want me to be happy just as much as I want you to be.... so I want you to know... I am... You've said you want to have friendship with me... I also want the same, but we need some time apart. I can't just see you and pretend everythings magically OK... because its not. We have feelings against eachother that will hopefully fade in time... I will not hold anything against you. Do you feel the same way?
"Selfish love Love me, cause I love you This is my way of love."
--Don't forget to smile--
Today I won't forget to smile, like so many other days beforehand.
Today I won't forget to breathe in the below freezing cold air only to violently cough it back out.
Today I won't forget to take a look around me and admire what I see
Today I won't forget to say how much I care to the people around me.
Today I won't forget to do something that -I- enjoy.
Today I won't forget to remember
The month of December.
December is the month of Tradition,Love, Giving, Diversity, and Family.
I won't forget to enjoy that either...
Today I pulled out my Nicotine Punk Rock Xmas album... Drank some Chaitea with extra cinemon ... Later on I will get some candycanes today. Cuddle on the couch with a fleece blanket and watch a christmas movie... I am -happy-
"Escape to the Stars, Feeling so free, Just you and me"
--Float like a feather in a downward spiraling motion--
I can have anything I want- I am Chasing a dream... Please don't hold me back and I promise I won't hold you back. You are a beautiful person. I find my self thinking Nobody loves me And when I do, I realize that everything will be ok... so long as nobody loves me... because I am me... and you are nobody. Being with nobody sends me into convulsions. Cast me out into oblivion with explosions in the sky. I will celebrate our good fortune, and in our good fortune we find Happiness. Give me extra cheers i'm dying slowly. You gauze my puncture and stop the bleeding... I wither and wither, but you don't lose hope... I think about nobody more than I should and I leave myself wide open... I felt so far gone, but you've breathed a new life into me. I can trust NOBODY- sporaticly yet exact my heart goes out to you. When we collide we make a beautiful collision. I fear not a dictator, for I see none. I won't ever forget to smile again. I close my eyes and submerge my head completely ~Kisu kisu Bakuhatsu
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Lyrics?
Counting Crows--
AFI--
Nirvana--
Papa Roach--
Smashing Pumpkins--
Miyavi--
Cinema Bizarre--